Anticipation

Lately I've been feeling a bit melancholy. Can't quite put my finger on why. I thinks it's a result of many things.

*1. I miss my Mom.

**2. I'm not satisfied with what I've accomplished thus far in my life.

***3. I've made some terrible decisions regarding "Joe" that I'm trying to bounce back from.

****4. My Dad's been in hospitals and rehab centers since November.

*****5. My former best friend of 38 years has still not bothered to reach out to me to find out what she did to upset me so, which is a clear indication that she just doesn't give a rat's ass about me.

******6. My car needs a lot of work done and I can't afford to pay for any of it.

*******7. It's February -- the month where LOVE is everywhere, constantly reminding me that I am no longer loved. Yes, I know I'm loved by my friends and family (which of course, I'm thankful for). That's not the love I'm talking about.

I've prayed, but I'm kinda wondering if I should put that on hold for a while. Maybe I need to stop talking TO God and start LISTENING more (as in reading His word).

I dunno. I'm just in a funk of some sort.

Can't remember the last time I had a hug...you know, a real "everything's gonna be okay, and even if it's not, I'm gonna hug you anyway" kinda hug.

I just need to pour my heart out to someone who will listen. Not judge (although I have a whole LOT to be judged for), but just listen.

There's one friend I've been wanting to call. He's always been a great listener, and an even greater encourager. He was once a really good friend, but my relationship with Joe changed things, and nothing's the same anymore. That's a shame because he's the only person I really wanna talk to right now. God knows my heart though, so maybe he'll place me upon my friend's heart and he'll call. I really need his ear. I really do.

That's about it for now. Praying that I come out of this soon.

In the meantime, Let the DIALOGUE begin: Who do YOU call when you really need to pour your heart out?

Talk to me!

Til next time...