Who Cares What Anybody Thinks?!? I do!!!

Tonight will be another short one, mainly because I'm tired.

So tomorrow is my running group's end of the month "all-group" run. That's where the various groups from different cities all meet up in ONE city and run together.

As much as I want to go, there's a big part of me that doesn't. That's the shameful part that doesn't want everyone to see how much weight I've gained. One of the women who will be there tomorrow actually helped me to lose 26 pounds back in 2012 (has since unfriended me) and I'm sure will look at me with disgust tomorrow...as if all of her efforts were for naught.

That's really not the case. It's just that life and depression got in the way of my weight loss efforts and as a result, I'm fat again.

But I love being out with my group, and even though I'm sure that I will come in LAST, I still want to be there.

So we'll see how it goes. Either SHAME will win and I'll end up staying home (again), or I will no concern myself with what others think and I'll get my fat butt out there. I'll let you know tomorrow.

Let the DIALOGUE begin: Is there anything that you are ashamed of?

Talk to me!

Til next time...

One Step at a Time

I posted the following on my running group's page this evening. Thought I'd share it here with all of you. Once again, my beloved mother has made an appearance in my thoughts...I don't think a day has gone by that she hasn't. And I am a-ok with that. Anyhoo...here it is:

"After being absent for the past 3 months, tonight I "got back out there" with the The Lakewood Lovelies. I've gotta say, these were the most emotional 2.93 miles I've ever done. With every step I thought about the reason that kept me away for so long...my Mom. My Mom who walked HER last STEP on 9/17/14, had her right leg amputated on 9/25/14 and took her last BREATH on 11/9/14. All I could think about tonight was how much she would've LOVED the opportunity to have done what I was doing. So tonight's 2.93 miles were dedicated to my Mom. It wasn't my fastest pace, nor my longest distance, and once again...I came in last...but FINISHED. That's all my Mom would've cared about...FINISHING. And it would've been enough to make her proud. Sooo good to be back with my "sole sisters" again...who welcomed me with the LOVE and encouragement that is BGR!"

Sometimes we "leave it all on the pavement" and other times, like tonight, the pavement GIVES us more than we anticipated. Either way...it's all good.

Let the DIALOGUE begin: Are you a runner? If so, do you typically run solo, or with a group?

Talk to me!

Til next time...