Reflecting

At this time last year, I was sitting by my Mom's hospital bedside waiting for her to "come to" and regain consciousness.

She'd been admitted to the hospital on September 17th, and had her leg amputated on September 25th. She hadn't been conscious for any of it.

As the days went on, we wondered how she would react once she realized what had been done to her leg. We didn't think she'd be too pleased, but it was the decision that HAD to made. Her leg was dying and as a result, her body was too. The leg HAD to go.

Those were some really sad days for me. Probably the saddest of my life.

Seeing the woman who was always such a spit-fire and strong-willed, now relegated to a bed and unable to speak. It was all too much.

Whenever I think of those days, my heart gets extremely heavy. I can hardly believe that it's almost been a year. Time certainly does fly...and not just when you're having fun.
During those moments of sadness though, I always remind myself of where she is now...IN THE PRESENCE OF GOD...and in that, I IMMEDIATELY find joy.

My Mom has no more pain, sadness, anger, sorrow, disappointment...no negativity WHATSOEVER. And that sometimes makes me just a wee bit jealous. My Mom now dwells in the place where I am striving to get to. My Mom has MADE IT! That place is now her PERMANENT residence! And I am simply overjoyed by the thought.

So yeah...this time last year wasn't a good time for me AT ALL. But when I look at the outcome...not so much that my Mom is no longer here...but the fact that she is finally where she always wanted to be...I can truly say that I am all right...and it is well with my soul.

Let the DIALOGUE begin: What were YOU doing on this day last year?

Talk to me!

Til next time...