Is it REALLY?

For some reason, this phrase (the one in the picture) popped into my head today...and it stuck.

It really has me wondering if it truly is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. At this particular moment in time I would have to disagree.

Yes, you've guessed it...this is another post about "Joe."

I just can't stop thinking about him. I'm always wondering.

Wondering if he decided to stay in Houston after he flew there last Wednesday.
Wondering if it was him who sent me the awful text message on Monday telling me that the pic I sent was "scary."
Wondering if "someone else" got to his phone and sent the message in an effort to make me think it was him.
Wondering what he what he was calling about after he sent the awful message. I missed the call, and he never leaves messages...so I still have no idea. Sure, I could pick up the phone and call him, but just this once...I want him to make the effort to show me that he's thinking about me and cares. I can't keep being the only one.
Wondering if he's actually back here in Cali, and if so...does he plan on staying.
Wondering if he's back in Cali, but only came to pack his things and head back to Houston...permanently.
Wondering if we will ever be more than we've ever been.

Wondering.

Now you see why I'm on the side of it being better to have not loved, than to have loved and lost.

I have loved, and I have lost...sooo much. In a variety of ways, I have lost.

I sometimes think about all that I would still have, had I not loved "Joe."
And then I think about all that I have had, as a result of loving "Joe."

I imagine that at the end of the day it comes down to this:
Did loving him and having him in my life bring me more joy than I now have with him being gone?

Tough question, and not one to be answered easily or quickly. Definitively something to think about.

What say you?

Let the DIALOGUE begin: How would YOU answer the question? Do you believe that it's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all?

Talk to me!

Til next time...